this is what open windows does

So for a week, I did not check my email for I have been waiting for something. I just got to read those emails. So I was not expecting so much in regards to that email. I already got to prepare myself for the worse case scenario to lessen the blow. Then what I expected came true, I was accepted then rejected. Goodness man!!! that is not cool, I mean, letting you taste your favorite food with a bowl of it but they just let you get a spoonful...bitch!!! Hahaha...well, that is just bitterness talking...but surprisingly, even if that was the message sent by the email...it did not sting that much...so that bitterness talk was of another story...Anyways, I thought there was only one email but I got a few as well, I saw the ranking and all...I got number one for some, hey!!! Hahaha...so I read the latest email again and again and it struck me, seriously, it was me being stupid already...goodness, I should get it the first time but since I embodied my worst expectation, I did not get to hear the point....I got in.

Have you heard or been to Angkor Wat? Lucky you if you did, I envy you...but not anymore...So just a background...On the latest 22nd of March, I got an email from my amazing prof in graduate school. She emailed us that someone was looking for volunteers for an excavation in a mound in Angkor Wat for 6 weeks...So I was being nerdy and thought it was cool...and its sponsered, hell yeah!!! I told to myself, I need to jump in and try...so I tried...and I got in.

Here is the sucky part of all this, well, sucky is actually subjective...yeah, keep telling yourself that Mr. U...In any case, what I really excited to be part of basically leads to me leaving what I turn to love to do...Well, I could go back and do what I do even if what do is not really good, hahaha...But it would have to later, like a year or two later...I would have love to continue doing it but that opportunity is Godsend man...Can't let it pass...Nonetheless, to you, dreadful of an institution that you call a disaster, damn it...you are special, in almost two months...I will not be in.